U r my distant star..

I love a distant star.
Shining so bright,looking so adorable from distant..how beautiful u r.. But i only can see u from here..to adore u..but to get closer to? It will just remain...
unreal

I miss u

Last night i dreamed of u..
It's not the first time,neither the 2nd,3rd,4th or 5th. Instead it was the 1000th time i dreamed of you.

I wonder why u r always there in my night dreams. I will wake up the next morning with the thoughts of u in my mind the whole day. It's not a pleasure thing i guess. It's so suffocating. Because i saw a different thing in my dreams n in my real life. So contradict. U behave in different manners. U r no longer concerned about me.no longer talk to me. no longer text me. As u did in my dreams.I feel lonely.. I miss u so bad..

Is it because of the exams?
I've been victimised n I'm suffering now. I miss u ehsan. I miss u but u don't even know that. How i miss you..

Owh i feel like crying..
U're no longer there, smiling at me.
N u'll be going back home. Leaving me behind again. When will u notice me? I knew it sounds impossible. But i can't stop myself from putting a lil hope on u..i miss u.. I miss u so bad..

Come back.....
Because i miss you..

;(

It's not okay when u have been missing ur home for so long but then u have to wait it and hold it because u don't have the courage to face some other ppl in ur life.

U end up being depressed. U just can't tell anyone about how u feel deep down inside. :'(

I feel like crying...
No one even cares because they will never know..

BBQ??

Well guys!
It was kinda awesome! We din have chance to ber"party" somehow. Dang! The idea came out so suddenly.

❝..kite wat bbq nak??..❞

Yes that's it! Of course la we want it! So that time we just listed down anything that was needed for the bbq to menjadi... Hehehe.

So the next day, i went to the nearest shop (ala² kbmall? Haha tpu :P) to get those things. Spices, sauce, ketchup, and etc etc.

So we marinated la ayams (banyak giler though in fact only for 5 ppl!) layan je la. besides, ade prawns, fishes, potatoes n bnyk lgggg!

We had that bbq at night. It's sooooooo exciting for we were having it at rooftop. U guys imagine that under the moonlight (it's full moon that night) we grilled those marinated food.

We talked all night about everything. Ya...it's such a cure to the stresses that burdened in ourselves. Alhamdulillah.

Great time. Indeed

Because you are something that i can never reach..

Soal hati memang xde sape boley paksa..

❝..I love u, u love someone else.
Somebody loves U,but U love somebody else..❞

There's really no end to this ☹

And today••

The tears came out when
he wrote this..

❝..I Only can see u from far² away. Only God knows how much i miss u..❞

Yes i love u and u love someone else.

I keep mourning over u.. Because it's so much painful. Someone saw my pain and she simply uttered things that echo to my heart..

She said, do not think only about ur sadnesses. It's unfair. u're not gonna blame him when u understand how he feels.. Try to put urself in his shoes..
See, he's suffering too. Just like u are..
He's missing someone that never sees him, someone that doesn't even know that he loves her..

He keeps his feeling all the way round..

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Owh I'm so sorry.. :'(

I did the same.. I feel the same..So now i know how u feel. I just can't blame u for not seeing me..u r totally not behind this.

Because the feelings, ain't the things that we can see. We feel. How they softly touch u so deep.. U won't be at ur conscious state to know they do.
So from now on..i will try my hardest, not to cry over u again..
When u're gonna say, u miss someone n u feel sad, I'm not gonna draw my tears out for not catching ur heart..
I'm gonna be there for u,whenever u need someone,in my prayer.. Yes whatever u wish for, my prayer will always be along with u..

I love u.. I'm not lying.. I miss u. And this is real.. Because i know where m i standing..and u're up there..this far distance surely won't help.

Because u r something that i can never reach..

Macbook air!

Owh God! This is crazy! I've fallen in love with that thinnest, lightest notebook apple has ever created.

Yeahh the design is surely well-known for its exclusive look. Ya! The one that apple always presents to its customer. No doubt, it has caught my eyes to buy it.

Haha and now ade hati nak beli.plus the current dell laptop I'm using is having problems. Repair n repair but ends up dying in the laptop bag.. :(

So i've started to save money for this macbook air. Owh i can't wait to buy and own it. Seriously this is so exciting. Amin amin may ᎯΙlah ease everything for me ❤

Hujan, tolong jangan pergi......

"Hujan, tolong jangan pergi...." Kata Awan

"Awan..., ada waktunya melepaskan itu lebih baik. Aku tidak sanggup melihatmu menanggung beban di dadamu hanya kerana tidak ingin aku pergi.".... Kata Hujan

"Tapi aku masih mampu..." Kata Awan

Hujan tersenyum sambil berkata:

"Ya, mungkin kau masih mampu. Tapi sampai bila kau akan mampu bertahan..?"

Awan terdiam....

"Aku harus patuh pada perintah Tuhan, dan kau harus akur pada takdirNya. Dia tahu betapa beratnya kau menanggung beban, kerana itu Dia perintahkan aku untuk turun ke bumi membasahi hamparan ciptaanNya yang Maha Agong, menyejukkan tanah-tanah gersang yang lebih memerlukan aku daripada kau perlukan aku." Kata Hujan

Didada Awan masih sedih, kesedihan itu membuatkan jiwa Awan terlalu mendung...

"Wahai Awan.. sungguh, kadang-kadang melepaskan itu lebih baik walaupun saat itu terasa begitu berat sekali. Tapi, Allah kan ada? Mengapa mahu bersedih?" Kata Hujan pada Awan..... Hujan sebak menahan perasaan...

"Pergilah kau Hujan. Aku rela demi Tuhanku dan Tuhanmu. Hanya demi Tuhanku aku redha... Terima Kasih Hujan. Mendengar kata-katamu, aku lebih mengenal siapa diriku." Kata Awan

Allahuuuuuu Rabbiiiiiiiiiiii... Selamat tinggal wahai Awan. Doakan aku bermanafaat untuk mereka yang lain.... Allahuakbar!!!!!!!" Jerit Hujan bersama guruh berdentum kuat...

Airmata Awan jatuh tanpa henti-henti kerana tersedar kembali, lalu insaf kerana selama ini cintanya pada Hujan melebihi cinta pada Ilahi.

Hujan pun turun bersama air mata. Sakit, saat melepaskan. Tapi Allah lebih tahu segalanya... Perasaan ini hanya sementara. Mungkin Langit tidak mengerti akan kesakitan Awan dan Hujan. Langit hanya menyaksikan. Tapi belum tentu Langit itu faham pengorbanan.

Awan.... Hujan menghadiahkanmu Pelangi. Kamu lihat bukan?
Subhananllah...