Let go. ;(

11jan13?

Okay now the time ive been waiting for (not so) has finally come. Uhuk. I don't wanna face it. Cause i don't have enough strength to do so. Owh! How sad n gloomy i feel inside.

Y did u leave me? I haven't had enough spirit to let u go. Don't go don't go ;(
It's not the right time cause i still need u..

He's going home...
He isn't going just by himself,
he brings half of my spirits along.. :'(

N i feel like crying...

U r my distant star..

I love a distant star.
Shining so bright,looking so adorable from distant..how beautiful u r.. But i only can see u from here..to adore u..but to get closer to? It will just remain...
unreal

I miss u

Last night i dreamed of u..
It's not the first time,neither the 2nd,3rd,4th or 5th. Instead it was the 1000th time i dreamed of you.

I wonder why u r always there in my night dreams. I will wake up the next morning with the thoughts of u in my mind the whole day. It's not a pleasure thing i guess. It's so suffocating. Because i saw a different thing in my dreams n in my real life. So contradict. U behave in different manners. U r no longer concerned about me.no longer talk to me. no longer text me. As u did in my dreams.I feel lonely.. I miss u so bad..

Is it because of the exams?
I've been victimised n I'm suffering now. I miss u ehsan. I miss u but u don't even know that. How i miss you..

Owh i feel like crying..
U're no longer there, smiling at me.
N u'll be going back home. Leaving me behind again. When will u notice me? I knew it sounds impossible. But i can't stop myself from putting a lil hope on u..i miss u.. I miss u so bad..

Come back.....
Because i miss you..

;(

It's not okay when u have been missing ur home for so long but then u have to wait it and hold it because u don't have the courage to face some other ppl in ur life.

U end up being depressed. U just can't tell anyone about how u feel deep down inside. :'(

I feel like crying...
No one even cares because they will never know..

BBQ??

Well guys!
It was kinda awesome! We din have chance to ber"party" somehow. Dang! The idea came out so suddenly.

❝..kite wat bbq nak??..❞

Yes that's it! Of course la we want it! So that time we just listed down anything that was needed for the bbq to menjadi... Hehehe.

So the next day, i went to the nearest shop (ala² kbmall? Haha tpu :P) to get those things. Spices, sauce, ketchup, and etc etc.

So we marinated la ayams (banyak giler though in fact only for 5 ppl!) layan je la. besides, ade prawns, fishes, potatoes n bnyk lgggg!

We had that bbq at night. It's sooooooo exciting for we were having it at rooftop. U guys imagine that under the moonlight (it's full moon that night) we grilled those marinated food.

We talked all night about everything. Ya...it's such a cure to the stresses that burdened in ourselves. Alhamdulillah.

Great time. Indeed