22.11.11
day after day..
time passed by,seconds replaced by minutes,
and times keep going on. now im alone,in fact, i am.
but deep down in my soul,i have HIM..thats y
im still trying my hardest to live,seeking for His forgiveness.
now i start to realize,iv come to my sense.
what a complicated thing,a man is.
man, one that i knew was him, a naive person,im sure that.
but that was at the first time i got to know him.
now it's different,completely and entirely.
he'd changed.
no matter how hard iv thought,
how splendid my idea was,i couldnt change him
back to the way he was before, i miss those times..
huhu.. :'(
he starts to know girls now,other than me.
he wants to get to know world,the real world outside,
the cruel one,life is so mean. because of that,
iv suffered. i know that what i am doing now is sooo wrong.
but i just wanna exclaim how sad i am,
to lose in this war,of saving him.
now i assume and hold on to my thought,
that he's dead. that's the best way to heal myself.
that bleeding wound is different,much much better and cosier
to handle,rather than thinking iv been dumped.
but the pain,makes me aware of reality..
stand up zati..u can do it,
thanks Allah..for always be there for me
04.10.11-Tue
29.09.11-Thu
day after day..
time passed by,seconds replaced by minutes,
and times keep going on. now im alone,in fact, i am.
but deep down in my soul,i have HIM..thats y
im still trying my hardest to live,seeking for His forgiveness.
now i start to realize,iv come to my sense.
what a complicated thing,a man is.
man, one that i knew was him, a naive person,im sure that.
but that was at the first time i got to know him.
now it's different,completely and entirely.
he'd changed.
no matter how hard iv thought,
how splendid my idea was,i couldnt change him
back to the way he was before, i miss those times..
huhu.. :'(
he starts to know girls now,other than me.
he wants to get to know world,the real world outside,
the cruel one,life is so mean. because of that,
iv suffered. i know that what i am doing now is sooo wrong.
but i just wanna exclaim how sad i am,
to lose in this war,of saving him.
now i assume and hold on to my thought,
that he's dead. that's the best way to heal myself.
that bleeding wound is different,much much better and cosier
to handle,rather than thinking iv been dumped.
but the pain,makes me aware of reality..
stand up zati..u can do it,
thanks Allah..for always be there for me
04.10.11-Tue
A lot of things happened..
im still trying my hardest to stand still,just like i did before.
but what ive seen now,it's so difficult..i started my day just
like everyday,but the difference was,i played the keyboard,
that i used to keep it under my bed.it's that song i used to play..
i feel terrible. i feel like giving in,but i know,someday,
im still trying my hardest to stand still,just like i did before.
but what ive seen now,it's so difficult..i started my day just
like everyday,but the difference was,i played the keyboard,
that i used to keep it under my bed.it's that song i used to play..
i feel terrible. i feel like giving in,but i know,someday,
i will smile again..right?
There'll be no more cure for someone like me,all i need is time,
and to wait for that moment to come,I hope that i'll b strong enough
to carry on my life. I do have my dad,my mom,my siblings,
but the difference is now-I do lost __.
chayok zati! u can do it :)
and to wait for that moment to come,I hope that i'll b strong enough
to carry on my life. I do have my dad,my mom,my siblings,
but the difference is now-I do lost __.
chayok zati! u can do it :)
Ya Allah,i know that U'll be there for me always,
that's y even though im on the verge of giving in,
i still can feel strength within,
and i know,it's a precious gift from U..
alhamdulillah..
i still can feel strength within,
and i know,it's a precious gift from U..
alhamdulillah..
let's pray for a brighter day tomorrow.. :)
29.09.11-Thu
u din break my heart,but u crashed it all..
what is left now is nothing,im a moving doll..\
13.05.11-Mon
ya Allah..
sedehnya hari ni. i affirm it's all my fault. i insist to be lazy,leaving behind what i m supposed to carry on.
macam mn ni? final exam da nak dekat dah. this will determine whether i can pursue my study here or return back to my country. huhu ya Allah..sedehnya hari ni. when i see all the people around me smiling because of their success,i keep frowning my face because of my failure..owh sedeh. i feel the time really do move fast. only 20 days left.how can i remember 6 thick books and u cant miss even 1 single word in 'em in these 20 days?
ya Allah..
salah aku. berlagak sangat xnak stadi.petang xm,pg baru baca buku.
ZATI!! ANDA MEMANG BERLAGAKK!!!!! !!!!! !!!!!! !!! !!!!!!!!!
tp..
ttp sedeh..masih adakah masa utk ku tebus balik semua..?
moga Allah berikan daku peluang kedua.
ttp sedeh..masih adakah masa utk ku tebus balik semua..?
moga Allah berikan daku peluang kedua.
ya Allah..berikan kejayaan kepada aku &kawan2x ku.
berkatilah usaha kami.ya Allah..aku maukan cita2x ku jadi kenyataan.engkau makbulkan doa ini,titipkan kesabaran utk aku terus perjuangkan hidup menuntut ilmumu ya Allah..