terima kenyataan

it's 6th oct already..
Im counting the days, it was sunday when I got messed up with my life.
and now,it's friday.. and for sure,6days already passed by
without me myself realize it.now what to do?waiting is not
a pleasure thing to do,instead, it's a misery.
Yet still I wanna believe,that I can smile again..
sabarlah wahai hati.. the new day will come,
but Im not sure when will it be..pasrah lah wahai hati..
mgkin apa yg kau mahukan itu tidak baik bg kamu..
im begging u~pasrahlah..pasrahlah..

Sometimes, I wish to had my memory lost,abruptly.
Cause Im pretty sure,that's the best way I can heal myself.
if I din remember anything,for sure,i'll forget u.
It's better than seeing my distressed face into the mirror,
no more smile appear. but when i read this ayat,
I keep telling myself to be patient,
to endure everything..

"..Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah,
dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati,

padahal kamulah org yg plg tggi darjatnya,
jika kamu org yg beriman.."

~al-Imran:139

Maybe,He had bigger plan for me,
something better than i could ever imagine..

"..cukuplah Allah bagiku,tiada tuhan selainnya..

Hanya kepadanya aku bertawakkal.."
~ at-Taubah:129

Sabarlah zati..kenyataan memang selalunya pahit..