Rasulullah SAW..

Assalamualaikum w.b.t :)

I woke up so early this morning. Yeahh that's a good start of the day.
Like usual, my whole family will berjemaah subuh at masjid ibrahimi, quite nearby my house..but only if we drive our car there !

Today is different. I feel it so different. I feel that a piece of puzzle is missing in me. Every morning, my mom will turn on tvAlhijrah channel. And by that time, i heard a song that catches my heart, with such a melancholy piece of rhythm, beautiful but full of thoughtful meanings.. It was telling about IF Rasulullah SAW is still alive..

I don't know what u people will feel about it once u heard how the lyrics rhyme.. But for me, it touches me really deep...

Lately there's so many crimes n murders among kafirun laknatullah towards us, muslims.. I cant imagine how they were killed like animals! Like we have no souls n feelings! We don't call it as BAD anymore, it is DEVIL.

Killing ppl n destroying others' life. That's so wicked, rotten, and nasty..!

I can feel how they long for Rasulullah SAW to be there, to inspire them n let them stay strong. To make them realise, don't be sad cause this life is only a temporary n the life in hereafter is forever..

Even me here feel that i need Rasulullah to stay alive.. Because i might not be evil like this if i can see him giving faith to stay in the right path though there are so many obstacles waiting me ahead..

Owh Rasulullah..
I miss U really really miss U.

I am the one who is guilty, who commit sins everyday n every night..
Forgive me ya ᎯΙlah...

I hope that one day, when Allah calls me to go home there, He will place me among the solihin and mujahidin.. And most importantly with Rasulullah..

"..ummati.. Ummati.. Ummati.."

Ya Rasulullah..
Ur loves towards us are so deep..
U care much for ur ummah..

But ruefully we have taken u for granted....