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Sometimes u wish that everyone could read ur mind,see ur suffers, so they can whisper something that could recalm u. But that wont happen, those things will always remain undone.

I hate myself, i hate being me. Im a troublesome girl w thousands of complications, nobody knows it. Cause when im sad, i'll put myself away from everyone else, and hide my pain behind the fake smile iv hardly created. Owh Allah.. Make me strong....

a persistent burden

 

all this while, iv never  felt this way, 

I havent experienced this wound,the bleeding one..

I thought i can be strong enough to endure..

but those burden,they r  hard to bear. too tough 

to sustain alone,solely just like i did.

and that's what im doing now.

when it comes to this matter,I just cant explained y.

I dont know, those past memories keep haunting me.
I really wish for everything's gone!
Owh how could I survive when I need to carry 

my broken heart along with me,

and that's the reason y I cant smile. 

I still think of somebody i suppose to forget.

Owh God,I really need ur guidance..
I just cant go on my life like this.
I hate it when I have to think this way.

Im not in a dither,
Im not hesitate to forget,but i still hope,still

wish for someday,everything will b paid off..

Zati,u can do it.. Ditch them all!

U just need some times more.

Then everything will be alright..
Amin..

my baby, i miss u. ♥

ah aqeef! umi rindu aqeef sngt.. :'(

yeah,another one month to go.then i gotta have a chance to see u.

wait for me wait for me! do wait for me! hukhuk i miss u so bad ♥

aqeef comeyyy!!

rinduuuu :') sngt... ♥

makan sayur eh syg umi :)

i love ur eyes! iv fallen in luv again ♥

rabbit umi ♥ hehe

versi bee plak ♥ muahh

untuk kamu..hati yg patah..

I affirm,im a kind of a broken heart now..
im totally lost,but this article a lil bit wakes me up..
thanks a lot.. ~

Untuk yang sedang bersedih

Beramalah kerana Allah, agar peluhmu tidak sia-sia.
Jangan kau hentikan amalmu kerana banjir airmata kecewa
yang menghalang jalanmu. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak pernah luput
hitungannya. Dia akan meninggikan setiap hamba yang jatuh bangun
menyempurnakan pengabdian padaNya.


Wahai jiwa yang sedang layu…

Panjangkanlah sujudmu di malam-malam sunyi.
Agar kau tahu bahawa keindahan tetap bersemayam
di hati orang-orang yang mendapati cinta Illahi.
Dan menangislah sepuasnya…
ketika hanya ada kau dan Dia.
Adukan sahaja segala resahmu.
Sebab dialah yang memiliki jawapannya.

Wahai jiwa yang sedang dirundung gelisah…

Jangan pernah berhenti mendengarnya bertutur.
Walau ceritanya merobek-robek harapan
yang sedang kau tumbuhkan.

Kadangkala manusia tidak mengenal
dirinya sendiri bukan? Dengarlah nasihat seorang bijak,
tentang seseorang yang sedang mencari kebahagiaan.
Kebahagiaan hanya akan diperoleh dengan banyak memberi.

Untukmu yang sedang luka..

Jangan pernah engkau hentikan
lantunan ayat-ayat cinta. Sekalipun suaranya
tenggelam tertelan riuh desakan air mata.
Kau tidak akan pernah tahu siapa yang akan terubat
dengan lantunanmu.
Maka teruskanlah nyanyian sucimu.

Hai pemilik hati yang patah..

“…yang kau sayang selalu sahaja menerbitkan kesedihan hatimu..”
Percayalah bahawa cinta dapat ditumbuhkan dimana saja.
Jika hati diumpamakan pintu, adalah wajar jika kita mengetuk
pintu yang salah. Insya Allah, Kau yang akan menemukan pintumu.
Mintakan pada Dia yang Menebar Cinta!

Kawanku yang dicintai Allah..

Hidup ini hanyalah permainan yang harus kita
mainkan dengan sungguh-sungguh.
Maka, tiada gunanya berlama-lama dalam duka.
Duka yang bertahun hanya akan membuatmu buta
akan banyak kebahagiaan yang disajikan Allah padamu.
Duka yang kau genggam akan membuatkan mu
jauh dari rasa syukur.

Ini untukmu yang sedang bersedih..

Dalam rangka menasihati diri sendiri..


sekian..

not loving u is harder than u know..

It has been almost 4years.
all this while, iv been waiting to wait for our 4th anniversary,
cause this year,im coming home. Yah i'll be home.
Im glad for this is the first chance i got.I can celebrate our
anniversary together :) I cant imagine how it would be.
it must be wonderful and full of love,right dear?

but yesterday,
everything's gone. i was clueless.
felt like my heart was just like the glass shattered on the floor.
u'd ruined everything. i couldnt sleep,i couldnt smile,i couldnt behave
the way i'd used to be. i felt totally lost. i miss u,and still hoping
that it was just a dream,really hoped so~ a freaky dream..

i wanna hate u. really.
i wanna blame u for all those things uv done.i mean it.
im sick. i hate u!

but those words are just unintended
no matter how hard i try,no matter what iv put on,
i still cant hate u..myb i'll remain a heart broken-woman like this.
i wanna hate u,but i cant..

can i love u sincerely from here?
i miss u these much..but u'll neva know..
without u knowing it..i wont disturb u,
let just me myself who know it.

guess my life will be empty now..

i wanna fall asleep,keeping myself unconscious....
till the time i can accept everything..

terima kenyataan

it's 6th oct already..
Im counting the days, it was sunday when I got messed up with my life.
and now,it's friday.. and for sure,6days already passed by
without me myself realize it.now what to do?waiting is not
a pleasure thing to do,instead, it's a misery.
Yet still I wanna believe,that I can smile again..
sabarlah wahai hati.. the new day will come,
but Im not sure when will it be..pasrah lah wahai hati..
mgkin apa yg kau mahukan itu tidak baik bg kamu..
im begging u~pasrahlah..pasrahlah..

Sometimes, I wish to had my memory lost,abruptly.
Cause Im pretty sure,that's the best way I can heal myself.
if I din remember anything,for sure,i'll forget u.
It's better than seeing my distressed face into the mirror,
no more smile appear. but when i read this ayat,
I keep telling myself to be patient,
to endure everything..

"..Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah,
dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati,

padahal kamulah org yg plg tggi darjatnya,
jika kamu org yg beriman.."

~al-Imran:139

Maybe,He had bigger plan for me,
something better than i could ever imagine..

"..cukuplah Allah bagiku,tiada tuhan selainnya..

Hanya kepadanya aku bertawakkal.."
~ at-Taubah:129

Sabarlah zati..kenyataan memang selalunya pahit..

Sabar~

"..dan kerana tuhanmu, bersabarlah.."~ al-Muddasir:7

Hari ni,Allah menguji aku lg...aku akui, ianya amatla sukar..

Tp aku harap, ujian kali ni lg mendekatkan aku padanya..

I never blame anyone for what's already written by Him, NEVER!

Cause I know, there'll be blessings in disguise.

But yet, still I hope, He'll give me enough courage to live.

and to wait for something precious in me..

"..Dun cry out my dearie eyes, u'll be just fine,

Dun get crashed my heart, sooner or later, u wont bleed anymore.

Trust Him, then everything will b alright.. "

Whenever a Muslim is afflicted with a hardship,

 sickness, sadness, worry, harm, or depression

–even a thorn’s prick,

Allah expiates his sins because of it.  

..amin..